my words………
taken from me
my insides
cut of out of me
leftovers on a tray
examinationns
I’m afraid
parasitic infections
mental manipulations
all i can see
what i’ll never be
serial storytellers toying with my brain
filthee layers leave me in pain
a voice, a feeling, no harm, NO HARM
visualizing the feeling
minimising the outcome
buried alive in my own mind
The beautiful scene of laying in bed with the entirety of my family:
My husband by my side, legs intertwined with mine;
My Tony-baby-kitty, in the crook of my arm, nestled like a baby;
Dixie Lee laying on top of the tangle of legs, purrfectly content if we move a tad;
My MommaCat, curled up in a ball near my feet;
and my Seance- my neurotic beautiful little princess kitty, who shall not be touched by any living creature other than her feline and human mothers- Seance, sprawled out on top of the ledge, watching over us all.
Even though I may not sleep, I have this peaceful and lovely scene to rest in for hours.
xoxo
This may be old news to some, but to me, its new, its horrifying….. its just WRONG!
How it happened, for me:
As one who never follows the Facebook trends, “post this for blah-blah-blah”, I found one last night that was fun- “Change your main photo to your favorite cartoon character from when you were a kid.”- ah, so thats why my grade school friend has Rainbow Brite up today and my other gf has She-Ra.
I immediately began searching for photos of Catra (from She-ra), Wonder Woman, Cheetara (from “ThunderCats“), and “Josie and the Pussycats“.
I found a great shot of Catra, and thought I’d leave it at that,
Catra
But I really wanted one more. So I did a Google search for “Wonder Woman 80s cartoon”.
A good deal came up, but then I saw IT. I was in complete “WTF” mode for a few minutes before I could start searching articles to find if this was real.
DC CHANGED WONDER WOMAN! She’s now in full……..”Politically Correct wardrobe”!! (And IMO, looks very Butch)
WTF!!!
My doppelganger, Lynda Carter, Oh , I wonder what she thinks……I’ll have to buy issue #600 to find out, I hear there is a short intro from her in it.
Lynda Carter vs the new FAKE Wonder Woman
DC Comics you have ruined Wonder Woman, why????
I read your reasoning behind it. “DC describes the new outfit as “a Wonder Woman look designed for the 21st century” that will allow Diana “to be taken seriously as a warrior, in partial answer to the many female fans over the years who’ve asked, ‘how does she fight in that thing without all her parts falling out?’ .
Really? Women ask that? I never did. I always loved her sexy, so-very-American costume, What’s wrong with looking good while kicking some ass? Has our world become SO Politically Correct that they had to PC-ize Wonder Woman??
Does Diana Prince get a makeover too? After all, she’s been wearing the same outfit just as long as WW.
If they really felt she needed an update, fine, by all means, give her a make-over, but keep her looking womanly, sexy, and with the American gear! ( I know the new costume has the stars and the colors, but there is nothing blatantly American about it, and its BORING- How many “X-men“/women can you name that dress the same exact way?- I though it was Rogue with with her white streak gone at first)
I’m curious if the new TV show will go along with the costume change that the comic-books have implemented. I guess I have to be patient and see.
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For anyone wondering what Facebook avatar I went with, I found this gem:
Wonder Woman & Cheeta, She-ra & Catra
Image via Wikipedia
To have a fictional character, one considered evil, Wicked even, as someone you look up could be considered…odd. But then again, I’ve always been quite a bit off from the norm.
I don’t see her as Wicked, just, misunderstood, a fighter. (A witch who tried to save Animals, now Who is that?! lol)
From the second I opened the book, I loved her. Then this summer I was able to finally see the Broadway adaptation of the novel. I was blown away. (The endings are very different, be warned!)
(from “No Good Deed“)-
“Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen
Eleka nahmen nahmen
Ah tum ah tum eleka nahmen
Let his flesh not be torn
Let his blood leave no stain
When they beat him
Let him feel no pain
Let his bones never break
And however they try
To destroy him
Let him never die
Let him never diiiiiiiiiiiie!!!!!!!!!!”
Oh Elphaba! My Green Girl! I love watching Idina Menzel as Elphie on youtube, she is most certainly the best, as she was the one to really define the role, the original Elphie.
“I don’t cause commotions, I AM one!” – Elphaba Throop/Oz – A quote I use often, taken from the original novel. When I heard it on stage I quite literally jumped in my seat and squeaked!
If you have not read “Wicked: The Life and Times of the Wicked Witch of the West“, I highly recommend it. No, DEMAND it. It reminds the reader that there are two sides to every story, and so much more.
I never did care for that Dorothy…
As I lay in bed last night, trying to sleep, I realized its mid-November again. This time, 6 years ago, in 2004, is when my husband and I met…for the 2nd time actually, but when we first started talking….
His Metal Band from North Carolina (Chambered) drove up to NYC to play at my club (Club Seho). He had written me a few days beforehand on Myspace to ask me to go (he had written many ‘hot girls’ to come out to the show). He had no idea who I was at that moment he wrote me, or what we would become. He didn’t realize we had met a few months earlier at some weird networking event and had given me his phone number (I had never called); he did not know I worked at the club he was trying to get me to attend. All he knew about me was what I had on my old Myspace profile at the time- which was not much.
Anyway, I looked at his “page”. Thot he looked familiar, but could not place him. I did take notice of how handsome he was though!
So I immediately called my boss and told him I HAD to work that night (it should have been my night off) and that I NEEDED to work the downstairs bar where the bands were playing. He was cool with it, I was their star bartender, I got whatever I wanted. Best Job EVER.
The night came…..much chaos….music, METAL, drinking, cameras of all kinds, drunken band-mates and their family, fans, groupies, friends, even an NYPD raid!…..but the one constant that night was that we locked eyes and that was it. Every song he sang, photo he posed for, even an on-camera interview- the whole time he was looking at me. Staring straight into me, thru my eyes and Into Me. My friend Ken was there, and was cracking up laughing at us both, he called it that night – that the “hot Metal guy” and I would be together. And he was right.
Now, 6 years later, we laugh about those days, how silly we were flirting, and how so much has changed…but they are great memories..
And I still catch him staring at me.
Stevil & Lele @ Firebelly bar in Wilmington, NC 2010
One of the things I miss about living in New Jersey (and there are very few) is being close to PAWS.
At first it was just a shelter to me…Go there, take photos of all the cats for their websites, go home. But the more I went, the more I fell in love….I loved all the cats there, but certain ones always stuck out- their strong personalities, DEMANDING that I pet them, craving attention. They were not all in cages. The ones that had been there for a lil while and were habituated were allowed to roam free. You walk in the front door and there would be cats everywhere- on the office desks, the chairs, rubbing up against your legs, it was a kitty heaven! (They have dogs too, they were in the back though, can’t let giant puppies be roaming around the office!)
Unfortunately, last year, PAWS had to leave that building because of reasons beyond their control. So, for now, they are a fostering network, until a new building is found.
I made a great friend there, and if it weren’t for her and PAWS, I would not have my lil boy, Tony, my ginger brat prince. Spoiled rotten.
Anyway, this weekend PAWS is having their Annual Holiday Fundraiser in Montclair, I hope some of you an make it, or donate, or volunteer. Something, anything, is always so very appreciated!
I will not be able to attend as I live so far away now, but my parents are donating for an auction. Please feel free to copy this flyer and send to your friends!
For more info on PAWS visit:
Sick days….and I mean DAYS. Always several at a time. Never just one or two. But I’m used to it now.
At first it was torturous. Now, I just keep busy to make the time go by- books (if my eyes can take it), tv, sleep.
I cherish the good days. I miss the Really Good days – its been years since I’ve had one of those. Now they are just a nice memory along with old pets and Christmas with Gramma.
I accept this. Not that I have a choice. But I deal, I cope.
I’m one of the lucky ones- I have someone who tries to understand, who helps me, loves me regardless of the giant black circles under my eyes, and the bruises from falling down…I hate having to be ‘taken care of’, but I let him. How someone like me had the luck to meet, and marry, “Mr Perfect” I will never understand, but..
I’m still scared though. I do not want to have to add those two letters to my diagnosis. Those two giant letters that will forever change life. Again.
I guess we’ll see. Countless more doctor appointments, specialists, tests…after all that I’ll know. Its tempting to skip all that and just never know.
For now, I’m focused on getting through this set of sick days.
Tony and Mommy, sleeping off the sick
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